As I thought...

As I thought the 'game' has ended...
As I thought we were no longer once...
As I thought everything was back in it's place...

Then suddenly you asked, why the 'ignorance'?

And now it's all happening again.

ps: Will this be the start of a new 'game'?

Something sweet...

Signs

A simple short film about communication.

Created by Publicis Mojo and @RadicalMedia

Director: Patrick Hughes

ps: Does this relates to your life too?

It's complicated...

It seems, life around me is getting complicated.

It's too complicated that I do not like what is happening now. I miss the old times. I miss the great friends I had. I miss the food I like. I miss the things that I did.

I want to stop this aggravation. But I do not have the strength to do it.

Shud I leave it to nature or shud I do something before it gets worst?

God, give me strenght. I'm still full of hope!

*Silent cry*

ps: Life is so miserable. But can still crack jokes! hahaha...

Padahal..padahal...

Kekadang org2 nie pon pelik ler..

Kalo nak berselindung rahsia tu pon agak-agak ler sikit. Tanyer mengarut2 siak kat aku. Sampai aku dapat tangkap aper maksud sebenarnya...

Aku paham dia malu nak berterus-terang. Tapi, tak guna ler nak berahsia-rahsia lagi lah. Rahsia dia dah 'terbongkar'. Sumer dlm kocek aku skrg. Aku cuma nak cantum balik jer pieces of puzzles tuu..

Aku dgr cerita lain. Kluar dari mulot dia cerita lain pulak. Actually kan, daripada dia putar belit, kan lebih baik dia takyah bilang aku langsung. Lagipon, aku tak pernah tanyer apa2 pon. Aku malas nak amik tahu.

Tapi tu ahh, lumrah manusia nie. Aku sekadar dengarkan ajer.

Tak abes2 berdolak-dalih...

Padahal...padahal...


ps: Aku pon main peranan lerr....Step clueless! heh....

Kawan ramai...Badut 1 jer

Titt! Titt!...aku dapat SMS.

Nisha: Ala! abeh mlm nie takda orang nak chat dgn i tonite...uhukkk!

Me: Elehh...You ramai kawan perrr....

Nisha: Kawan ramai...badut 1 jer!

Tak baik seyy korang panggil aku badut! Mentang2 aku buat korang ketawa, korang suka ahh panggil aku badut...uhukk!

But nisha said, I shud be proud. Well, on a 2nd thought, I shall take it as a compliment too. At least, I'm glad that my witty talent put smiles on people's face. But then, when I'm sad and lonely, who will cheer me up? I guess, I have to look into the mirror and start amusing myself.

ps : Sad but true. :-(

Semalam ku bermimpi...

Semalam aku balik lambat. Terlampao penat sampai tak sempat nak berendam dalam jacuzzi (lupa nak mandi dahhh).

Aku bukak computer, chk emails, recharged laptop, recharged battery camera, on radio...terus aku tertido.

Sedang aku tidor, tetibakan aku bole termimpi. Aku termimpi aku buat blog baru. Cantik skali blog aku tuu. Tetiba ajer aku terbangun. Terus aku dapat idea mcm mana nak cantik kan blog aku. Aku happy skali...hehe!

Jam dah pukol 9 pagi. Baru aku teringat aku blom mandi dari semalam.

ps : Hari nie aku balik lambat lagi...aku nak tengok citer hostess kena kidnap! huhu...

Cleopatra

Kawan aku ajak gie karoke....

Kawan: Bro, jom kiter hurray-hurray gie karaoke.

Aku: Bole ahh. Gie mana? Cash Studio??

Kawan: Alamakkk...kental lah lu! Kiter gie 'Cleopatra'. Aku introduce kao dgn hostess nie.. ------------>

Aku: Perghhhhh.....Tergugat siakk iman aku! Kao nak watai kaper?

Kawan: Kao nak tak?? OR aku ajak kao gie 'Silver Horse'. Amaciam??


ps: Errr...aku tengah pikir nie...dumdeedumdeedumdeedum...

Semalam yg lemao...

Liverpool kalah 1-3 dgn Chelsea...uhukk...uhukk!!!

Aku sungguh lemao skali. Sungguh takde mood pagi tuu. Smlm main bola kat the cage pon lemao. Walaopun selemao-lemao nyer aku, aku tetap sarungkan jersey Liverpool. Tapi, main lemao.

Smlm booking pitch pon lemao..Time sampai jer booking dah cock-up. Aku booked kol 8-9pm. Skali dia kater, booking record aku kol 9-10pm...Bingitzz siaaakk. Rasa mcm tak nak bayar jer. Yg lemao lagi, aku tak print out booking confirmation notice aku.

Terus tonggang terbalik schedule. Tak pasal2 join group lain main bola. Nasib baik geng aku sumer tu sporting. So, kiter tunggu ler sampai kol 9pm baru bole main bola..

Si Wak ajak gie 'project' dulu sementara menantikan 1 jam. Ok lah, kiter 6 orang naik keter pusing2 kat tempat 'project'. Sunyi sepi jerr kat situ. Lemao siaaa...dah lah tu, jalanraya jam lak. 20min jer rounding. Takde aper nak tengok. Lemao siaaa...

Dgn kehampaan, kiter balik to The Cage dgn muka yang lemao...

Main bola lemao...habis main bola pon lemao...Kira satu hari smlm aku lemao nak mampos.

Sekian terimakasih.

ps: Pastu ader org kasi aku lagi hilang mood. Aku bobal baik2, tak pasal2 nak ngamok ngan aku. Lemao siaaa!

I want to stop this 'game'...

I wrote:

Before I met you, I din expect the scenario will come to this. But from that very day, my gut told me something is going to happen. Only time will tell. And I guess it’s true.

And so, I begin to play along this ‘game’.

She wrote:

dear ek
haizzz seems more and more "depressing" to hear u keep on mentioning it as a "game"...haizzzzz...


ps: I've never asked myself to be in this 'game', dear. But I know, in a matter of time, this 'game' will soon end. But, how will it end?? *sigh*

Provocative action leads to positive result

OMG!!!

I am so overwhelmed when I realised my provocative words I said 2 years ago, actually has inspired someone to achieve something very worthwhile.

Read here.

I am so glad you have taken my words positively, as a personal challenge to yourself.

Now, look around you.

Ask yourself, how many people can do like what you can?? Suddenly, I am impressed! You are one-in-a-million now. :-)

When the clock strikes 12...

And suddenly she said:

"...ur the best boy friend i've ever had, fyi!....and i'm not trying to impress you or something.."

Fuuwaahhh...rasa macam nak terjatuh ajer aku dari kerusi. *hic*

I'm deeply deeply flattered. Glad u feel that way. You made my day. Thank you.

No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you...

"Lovin is not how u forget but how u forgive, not how u listen but how u understand, not what u see but what u feel & not how u let go but how u hold on" - Kriz

Aku quote dari Facebook Kriz. Perrrghhh....Lovely seyyy :-)

Malam tu aku betol tgh sibuk giler dgn kejer opis aku. Kriz IM aku kat MSN. Dah lama aku tak dgr khabar Kriz sejak dia sakit tempoh hari. Kriz ajak aku online jap.

Dia suruh aku dgr lagu Ne Yo - Mad. Dia kater dia suka lagu nie.

Kriz: never go to bed ANGRY
Aku: true...true
Kriz: u never know if you & your partner will wake up the next day
Aku: ooohh.. touching seyy
Kriz: if u keep on listening... u will like it

Sambil aku dgr lagu tu, aku pon baca ler lyric nyer sekali.

[lyric]

I know sometimes
It's gonna rain...
But baby, can we make up now
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
(Cant sleep through the pain).

[Chorus]

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me).
No, I don't wanna go to bed
(Mad at you),
And I don't want you to go to bed
(Mad at me)
Ohhh no no no...

[Verse 2]

And it gets me upset, girl
When you're constantly accusing.
Askin' questions like you've already known).
We're fighting this war, baby
When both of us are losing.
This ain't the way that love is supposed to go).

Ader betol jugak ler kata2 tu. Don go to bed angry. Sblm tido tu, maafkan ler org kat sekeliling kiter. Tak tahu besok kiter hidup lagi ke tidak ..huhu.

So, aku mula ler tanyer apasal mood dia depressed jer. So dia citer kan lah dari A-Z. Alaa..sedih lak aku dgr. Ye lah, aku faham akan keadaan dia tuu. Maybe she needs some private moments alone. Dia kater dia baru jer 'berdebate' dgn spidey tadi..

Kriz: kekekek...as usual im stubborn
Aku: ahh..its ok to debate
Kriz: dia nak challenge my stubborness
Aku: i understand u. we don take it too hard
Kriz: anyway thanks for being a good fren
Aku: u r a nice person too. happy to noe u
Kriz: like i said thanks for accepting me as your fren...of all you know i can be a serial killer
Aku: don kill me. i'm worth nothing :P
Kriz: im a serial killer ...would i tell you??
Aku: no i don tink so
Kriz: no not everyone worth something. you dont think so you worth something??
Aku: nope. its not for me to judge
Kriz: dude as a fren... your frfenship worth more then life itself
Aku: woohoo...nice i like ur quote
Kriz: your frenship relly mean a lot to me. well u can blog it if you want it
Aku: i hope so...its the same to you
Kriz: of course
Aku: i'll blog ur quote
Kriz: hehehe
Aku: sounds sweet :)
Kriz: u are so sweet
Aku: *blush*

(Bla....blaa...blaaaa......)

Aku: i don make assumptions
Kriz: see ... to you, you worth nothing...but to others you worth something
Aku: so do you
Kriz: thanks
Aku: :)
Kriz: ok la...we chat again ok...take pictures ok and downloadin facebook..so i can see. miss you all
Aku: good nite

After that, Kriz sounds cheerful as ever. Glad I made her feels good. It's not worth lingering in the past. Take it as it comes and be prepared for the future.

As for Kriz, i wish for your speedy recovery. Things are diff when you are not around. Thks for Ne Yo's song. I don go to bed angry anymore. :-)

Gudnite, Kriz. Sweetdreams.

Ne Yo - Mad

Celik mata, tutop mata...

Macam nak menjerit pon ader. Minggu nie dah bermula balik ler routine busy aku.

Tu ler dah lemak sangatkan dok rilex sejak November tahun lepas. Sekarang kejer sumer dah bertepek kat aku. Lepas raya cina tu hari, sumer dateline dah kluar. Sumer project nak pick up balik. Ntah terdaya ke tidak nak buat nie.

Kepada sumer yg bertanya kenapa aku senyap sunyi, paham-paham lah ye. Aku nie nie kerjer tak ikot shift. 24/7 jalan terus. Kekadang orang sedap cuti dok umah, aku pon cuti dok umah jugak, tapi dok umah pasal memperhabis kan kejer..huhu.

Minta maaf ler kepada korang yg ajak aku kuar, ajak jumpa, ajak gie karaoke, ajak gie makan sup tulang, ajak chatting...aku tak dapat tunai kan mcm selalu tu.

Kalo aku selak calender balik, aku rasa sampai July ler aku sibuk mcm nie. Takde masa langsung nak bersantai-santai. Banyak nak susunatur balik jadual kejer aku nie. Nafas mcm dah sesak sangat.

Dah sebulan aku tak balik JB. Rindu jgak nak tengok kampong halaman tuu. Tapi aper nak buat, mcm aku bilang si Murni tu hari, aku berkejer nie sekadar nak cari sesuap nasi jer.

Dia kater, "Alaaa..sedih sangat dgr citer kao tuu." Tau tkpe..hahaha!

So, kalo aku tak layan korang tuu bukan nyer aku sombong, tapi aku sedang didalam keadaan sibuk giler. Doa kan ler kesejahteraan dan kewarasan otak aku nie..hehe.

ps: Nisha, sorry kalo u tunggu sampai terlentok depan laptop u semalam. :-(

Bitter Sweet

If I tell you
Will you listen?
Will you stay?
Will you be here forever?
Never go away?
Never thought things would change, hold me tight
Please don't say again that you have to go

A bitter thought
I had it all
But I just let it go
Hold your silence
It's so violence since you're gone

All my thoughts are with you forever
'Till the day we'll be back together
I will be waiting for you

If I had told you
You would've listened
You had stayed
You would be here forever
Never went away

It would never have been all the same
All our time what have been in vain
Cause you had to go

The sweetest thought
Had it all
Cause I did let you go
All our moments keep me warm
When you're gone

All my thoughts are with you forever
'Till the day we'll be back together
I will be right here waiting for you...Love.

@}------

ps : Satu hari tu, seseorang kasi aku nie. Tapi tu kisah lama derr...*uhuk*uhuk*

Intimate moment...

It was yesterday. We talked. Cold feet. You shivered.